064. I watched our shadows as they melted together...

Uh oh! Erin forgot about her livejournal again! Perhaps I'll try to keep this a bit more updated.

The last two months have been filled with many late nights, playing music with my Chree Justin and Brian (I've been making progress on the drums!), hours of laughing and slurpees with Marisa and gaining trust and comfort for a beautiful man who makes me produce butterflies in my tummy everytime we talk. Some days are still overly stressed where I can't do anything but lock myself in my cozy room and write for hours. On the flipside, I've been coming up with the most wondrous of thoughts in doing so.

There is still one thought that has been haunting me. I can't seem to stop regretting the last two years where I put up with such awful feelings, for no reason other than, I thought it was love. I thought I could make a love. Go me for trying to plan out a life on an autistic being. Recent smiles and kisses have done nothing but impound the notion into my head that I deserve better and can attain it without having to do any work but be myself.

I've also been doing a lot of arts and crafts haha. I painted the bathroom a nice light blue with white trim in the early twilight hours. I ate ice cream afterwards and watching The Talented Mr. Ripley right before I placed my head on newly laundered pillowcases. I've organized and placed over 2,000 photographs spanning from the early 1900s - present time and put them all in scrapbooks and photoalbums for my family and children to enjoy one day. and um.. I was sick of thinking about them stuck in the storage room. It drove me nuts.

I'm doing much better than I was 6 months ago. Slow advancements are being made to a calmer me!







Chree got a new puppy named Darla who is equivalent to Satan on roids. She tried to bite my nose and beats up dogs who are 10 times her size.






I spent a few days with Alyssa, this one was at a lovely Paulson / Folly show at Rutgers






Apparently green is the new black






taking pictures from above your head will always be AWESOME haha with my Justin!






This picture was taken a few hours before Brian's car got towed and I didn't get home until 6am with a 5 page paper to hand in the next day. It was also the last night Chree was in town before he decided to go on tour for 2 weeks.







I spent a few days with Mike after an absense of at least 6 months without him!







His ferret, Piper, is very social and photogenic






Then again so is Rich when he's doing magic tricks.







I soon decided I should chop all of my hair off to look more like a little boy and rebel against old age.







I decided Alex should get his first real haircut in 22 years to join me in this rebellion of looking our age. We both look 15. That's cool.







Of course he's a good 9 feet tall and towers over my Chree so he only looks 15 when sitting down.







Watching Logan and Ian fight each other with swords at midnight was cool. Ian killed Logan which is why he's not in New Jersey anymore. Brotherly love is awesome.







Chree and I last night at his show.






cutest couple ever<3 they make me happy<333






its always a pleasure seeing mike in daisy dukes






or Jaa grabbing his ass while pretending he smokes. What a bunch of hotties






Pepper and my gurrrrlll!






i'm a weirdo






it was really hot outside






tough guys






hes the most fun person to take pictures with






Jonathan and Casey! Yo they're so adorable. I have the cutest friends ever.






this is love!






this is a lot of love.






Chree doing his job in THE NUMBER TWELVE LOOKS LIKE YOU, who are a grindcore band, and if you know me at all you realize I do not listen to anything hardcore / grindcore whatever. double bass pedals. HOWEVER! these men will knock you off your feet with the amount of energy and emotion they put in a show soooo.. go to one. miss all the other bands if you're not into hardcore either but just go see #12!







This was a nice shot of Alex






Smoogs kept standing in front of me so I think he just wanted pictures of himself






Jase wanted me to make sure I knew he had no roots and that he was a natural brunette






This is Justin. He has great hair color.






They're a great band and you should probably watch them play.






or buy all their albums and merch because I would.



love.